For years and years I have been feeling like my body is not right for me. Am not 100 percent sure it can be changed, but am 100 percent committed to do whatever I can to make it happen.

It’s the easiest and most effective way to crawl out of my dirt pit.

It’s also something I have almost complete control over.

There are so many situations in my life that are so different from how I would like them I wish to rip my heart out and just explode into a million pieces and stop existing, things I have not the slightest bit of control over, but it’s me who decides what to put in my body and how to exercise it.