The ideal life

If am honest

• I would be in the same physical shape as in August 2007
• I wouldn’t have these waves of dark, hateful thoughts all the time
• In the morning I would teach at a university, preferably something like American history, but also contemporary American politics and economics. I would have excellent colleagues there
• During the day I would receive therapy clients
• I would still teach languages to adults, but not as intensively as now
• I would have an -even- bigger apartment and a huge balcony
• I would have my own fully equiped fitness at home
• My library would be bigger and much more accessible and organized
• I would finally stop worrying about money
• There would be regular boardgame nights, but definitely the more difficult boardgames would be played
• I would never have to travel further than like 8 kilometers max (I hate travelling)
• I would be actively helping to improve Bratislava, alleviate suffering on a larger scale than the pitiful little am doing now
• Because I wouldn’t have money worries I would arrange to have a wide variety of healthy food at home and I would learn to cook Indian food, etc. I almost wouldn’t eat meat or animal products. Now I eat meat because am lazy and in Slovakia it’s cheap to order baked cheese or chicken and the excellent soups almost always contain meat. At the moment I eat the same crap almost every day. Like for the past two weeks I’ve eaten canned tuna almost every day, because it’s easy and it fills. I must be edging pretty close towards mercury poisoning
• I would act in plays, there don’t need to be larger crowds than 50 to 200, just to keep the pressure on
• I would feel relaxed enough to be as spontaneous as I once was and interact cheerfully
• In my super ideal life I would be a rock star, but that’s so far removed from my actual skills that I didn’t want to include it here, I just can’t imagine it. I think all of the above is not outside of the realm of the possible
• I suppose I would have kids who would be happier than I ever was
• I would finally be able to focus long enough to channel my creative energy into one good novel or book instead of hundreds of little, scattered blog posts
• My father would be alive and doing only things he really enjoys, in excellent health