six human needs IIWhat is the one thing you can do today that can bring me closer to your goals?

Mary sent me two great chapters for the novel we’re working on, I have to add two of my own. Yesterday I noticed I can get a lot more writing done if I push myself. I’ve also noticed that by pushing Mary to write, I have the reflex to set the right example and I push myself to write more.

Other things you absolutely want to focus on today:

Yesterday I finally managed to eat less than I usually do, I want to build a streak and eat less today as well.

How can you create more value today than you did yesterday?

Write 20 percent more than I wrote yesterday.

What made you feel happy, in flow, recently?

Waking up at 6 am and reading the chapters Mary sent me last night. Sleeping with the windows open, the air in Slovakia smells so much better than the air in Belgium…

I am grateful for:

Our appartment gives us a sense of opportunity, in part because of the view we have from the balconies.

I’m really excited about:

Finding more tricks to do more each day.

These are the most important habits I’m building:

Have the reflex to write, instead of wasting time on YouTube.

Stuff I did right:

Pushing myself to work more.

Systematically following and gathering Neo-Confederates and blogging about it here.

image1Things I’ve learned:

Gretchen Rubin is unknowingly stumbling on the six human needs in her book ‘the happiness projects’ (see picture above). Her writing is fine, but I have the feeling she’s been so succesful because she has a strong network… Are we all only as strong as our network?

Also: For the last ten years or so I’m constantly, meaning literally non-stop, plague by the feeling that if I don’t have readers I do not exist. This feeling gives me constant cramps in my core, I mean, I  feel a very clear physical strain on my body, because I’m almost fanatically seeking validation through writing, as if I do not matter at all unless somebody reads what I write. I know this is not healthy, and it’s a major source of unhappiness, but I’ve never figured out what to do about it. So far what makes this feeling the least bad, is to write a lot, but writing doesn’t make it go away. If I don’t write I fall into a state of gloom and despair. I know where this comes from, but knowing where the roots of this are, doesn’t heal it.

So what should I do? Simply write more? What would I tell myself if I were my own therapist? Honestly, I have no idea.

Openly communicating about this issue has made me feel slightly better.

What would you do today if you weren’t afraid?

Finish a Civil War article and send it to a newspaper…. Plus all the stuff I’ve mentioned in earlier posts… I HATE HOW FEAR IS HOLDING US BACK.

Live an authentic day!