During an Ayahuasca ritual my shaman said to some overly enthusiastic participants: ‘Do you want to have an amazing Ayahuasca experience or do you want to have an amazing life?’

Similar to David’s words: ‘Do you want the light or do you want to be right?’

I know am right about Israel, the Democrats, the Republicans, about mainstream journalists being willy nilly the stenographers of the one percent, and of course about how other mainstream people value the wrong things.

But kabbalah teaches I should ask: where in my life am I like Israel, the Democrats, etc, etc, etc?

How can I be the light in my own life, so I create more light that drives out the darkness mentioned above?

I don’t have an answer yet, but I do notice that sarcastically commenting on all that I loathe gives me a bit of instant dopamine, but keeps me at a low vibration.

Do you want the light or do you want to be right?

The question really hit me.

Via some of my students I also see how by being this one man crusader army stops me from actually living.

I know plenty of people who have no idea whatsoever what the Naqba is, but they’re having cool experiences that I deny myself.

How am I like the very crap I bash?

If am like Israel, am evil.

If am like the Democrats, am like an arrogant virtue hoarder who likes keeping weak enemies (the Republicans) around to make me look good.

If am like people having their simple pleasure seeking priorities wrong, I must have plenty of simple pleasure seeking priorities of my own.

What is really angering a person who expresses anger directed at people they haven’t met and will never meet?

I know something much deeper and much more personal is going with people who demonize the Palestinians publicly, so the same must be true for me.

So do we just look away when we see evil?

Or do we use it as a reminder that there is evil in us and we have work to do?

I want the light by the way.

I don’t know how to get it, but perhaps I let some of it by at least cutting down on shouting I am right.