Listening to this song makes me almost writhe in pain for not knowing how to play the guitar. I have to stamp out words on a keyboard to express something and catchy it is not.

I may be coming down with some sort of cold. Yesterday I was done with my last client at 21.45 and I fell asleep less than 10 minutes later.

For the first time since Ayahuasca I woke up sort of well rested physically, but still mentally clouded.

A friend who did Ayahuasca one week after week wrote me this morning that it helped him for a week.

That’s also my impression.

Suspicious…

It gave me some insights, I understand the past and my attitude towards it better, but nothing has been solved. In some areas my attitude is healthier, more constructive. Am even better with Bruno than before, for example. In other areas it’s the same old, same old.

Am planning to watch that new Al Jazeera documentary today. What is hidden is greater.

Nobody in my direct environment would do such a thing.

I don’t really know how people are able to just focus on their career, cocooning, their looks, their gardens, their cars, their rather vapid holidays and hanging out with friends and family.

I wish I could, but am always dragged into stuff that in theory should’t concern me in the slightest.

At the same time I don’t understand the other extreme either, as mentioned before, I used to know people who politicized their entire life and had almost no room for the things listed above and that I don’t understand either. Hard to find a balance between living your life and giving attention to the stuff outside one’s little bubble.

I can see how it would benefit me personally more if instead of watching some docu I used to time to get a haircut and a get a barber to trim my facial wilderness, but I don’t.

I don’t want to make these Musings with Joe too long and a client is ready for a session.